just another hiccup.

37 more days until I move back to Lincoln to start my Junior year….

That simple statement stirs up a lot of emotions for me. Am I excited to go back? YES. Am I ready to see my Lincoln family? Absolutely. Do I miss seeing my friends? Everyday. Truth is, I can’t wait to move back to Lincoln. I have a lot to look forward to…I have 15 amazing young women to lead, I have a bible study of my own to return to, my friends will all be in one spot…some even right down the hall, and I have a great opportunity starting at my church in Lincoln when I return. With all of that said, why would I be anything but excited? 

However, I’m also worried, scared, confused. For the first time, I’m going into this school year not knowing the outcome. You go through high school knowing that in four short years, you will graduate with a diploma. Then you head to college knowing you will get a degree in what you want to do within the next 4-6 years. At least, that’s what I thought. This year, I am heading into my junior year not knowing if i will return in the spring…and that breaks my heart. I have found an AMAZING community of people…people that all hold a special place in my heart, people that I call family, people that I love deeply, people that love and care about me more than I have ever experienced before. I can’t even begin to imagine saying goodbye to them. Thinking about it makes my stomach hurt. 

I’ve become so confused in what God has planned for me. I can’t imagine doing anything else with my life other than working with children. I love kids too much to not be around them…I know that is what I am called to do. I went through a rough freshmen year trying to figure out what to do with my life and finding those friends that constantly support me. I have finally found that. And now I might be ripped from it? I just can’t comprehend why God would do that. 

When I first got the news that my major was no longer offered in the state of Nebraska and that I might be switching schools come January, I thought it only affected myself and my family. However, it’s affecting everyone around me. Seeing the devastation in my friend’s faces when I tell them just breaks my heart. I’m not the only one this is affecting. 

37 more days until I move back to Lincoln to start my Junior year…

I don’t know what God is doing with this and I know that I just need to let go and let God, but this is really hard for me. I’m just praying for patience…lucky me, my God is the most patient guy I know. I pray for patience in letting this go completely to God, patience in knowing what is planned for me. I know God knows what He is doing…even if I can’t see it. This is just another hiccup in my story. 



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Believe!

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Believe!

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Before/After

I know, it’s been a long time. Lately, I have been thinking about what my life was like before I had a relationship with Christ and what it is now. Maybe it’s because I have had the privilege of watching two of my great friends get baptized…it doesn’t matter, because either way it’s amazing.

Before Christ:

  • I worried about what I looked like
  • I thought I was unwanted by certain people
  • I placed all my time and effort into relationships with both boys and girls.
  • I was constantly worried about how I wasn’t in a relationship when all of my friends were.
  • I had a hard time finding where I belonged.

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Not even HALF of my freshman study, but so blessed to have these girls in my life :)

Not even HALF of my freshman study, but so blessed to have these girls in my life :)


I think this year is going to grow us in ways we can’t even imagine. So excited to see how God uses our friendship this year :)

I think this year is going to grow us in ways we can’t even imagine. So excited to see how God uses our friendship this year :)


what a change

Well, here I am…finishing the 5th week of my sophomore year and I feel like I am completely different than how I started the year. God is doing some amazing things in my life:

-blessed me with an amazing group of freshmen girls to lead them to know Christ more.

-blessed me with two amazing bible study leaders of my own. I don’t know what I would do without their advice.

-blessed me with a fantastic roommate. No joke. I thought I knew Alex pretty well going into the year, but I learn something new everyday.

-One of the most important: He brought closure to something that has been on my heart for a long time. I didn’t think it’s what I wanted at first, but it has been the best thing for me. His plan is GREATER than my own.

God is doing extraordinary things in my heart. I’m confused about some things, but it all boils down to this: God has a plan for my life. He knows what He is doing and I just need to trust in that. I found a verse in my quiet time the other day that was perfect for me.

"A person may plan his own journey, but the Lord directs his steps." -Proverbs 16:9


A New Start

As most of you know, I am now living in the dorms at UNL starting my sophomore year. A lot has already changed, and classes haven’t even started yet! I am now leading a freshman bible study with a really close friend from home, through Navigators. My schedule is already crazy, but God knows what He is doing. Also, from going without a roommate all last semester of my freshman year, it’s weird having one, but it’s great! Granted, it’s only been 1 day, but I just have a feeling that it’s going to be a good year.

I don’t know what this year holds, there are a lot of unknowns. I am certain of one thing though: God knows what He is doing. God is driving this year and I’m just the passenger. I definitely feel a lot different than how I felt this time last year. I’m excited to be back, no tears have been shed, and I’m anxious for my classes to start, my job to get up and running, and to lead freshman girls. It’s all so exciting!

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